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here are the thoughts of my corrupt and broken mind that i draw onto paper for all to see. enjhoi ~
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Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
United States

i dunno what to put here


You've made me

Worst than all of them combined.


Whatever happened
When we talked so much.
When we were never apart much at all.

When I always knew that you'd be there for me the next day.
When you lifted my heart up every time I needed it.
When we role-played.
When we loved each other.

Give me a better reason why you're cease to all that.


If you knew what I've gone through and what could potentially happen, then why did you
Leave. Considering you left earlier than all the rest. It hurts. Bad.
Cease to speak for 2 weeks; maybe longer.
Tease me whenever you felt like it.
Shorten our convers--.. I can't even call them that anymore since how short they are.
I understand and know why you left. But you aren't trying hard enough for me. Please.


This isn't fair. None of this is. Yet no matter how much
I plead.
I try my best to get you to speak.
I ask of you to help me with my bad thoughts and emotions.
I message you every so often due to lack of confidence.
I try not to get you to panic etc. yet I end up making you. Causing you to leave for a certain amount of days.
I try not to inflict pain onto myself. Not that I have already. Just.. thinking.
I try not to let the bad emotions slip.
I try not to listen to bad music every night, causing panic attacks.
My needs and requirements... are never met since that very day you quit messaging me as often as you did.


I miss when we used to
Stay up until 3am talking, until one of us falls asleep.
The ability to voice chat for convenience and better mood.
Thinking that this would never end.
Smile together.
Be abnormal together.
..Have the ability to love--.

I have realized overtime that.. nothing lasts long. But.. things like this and above should never be short.. Especially a person like me a-and you.


I have a few questions to ask of you-- if you'll listen this time
Where will we be in 5-10 years?
Will this be the on-going sameness I'm receiving?
Will we ever be able to love again?
Will you speak to me soon enough?
What's the real reason why you can't help not accommodating me? E-..especially when I need it--?
I know all of these answers of your's will be an "I don't know." But I want you to really think, and consider upon these questions, and what I have written for you.
If you're crying at this point, having any signs of attacks, and got this far; that means you cared enough about me to read through this poem of mine. I-..I hope you're h-holding up so far.
I'll always love you, Linn. You're just too overwhelmed and don't know why and how much yet to understand the things that I do and acknowledge it.

Sincerely, your favorite best-est friend,
                       Max. Huggle! Sadness  Ashamed 


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WayneBenedet Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2017
Thank you for the :+fav:s and :+devwatch:
CeptinSmerglez Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem!
I'm just obsessed with old things. :squee: Nuu 
WayneBenedet Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2017
Thank you for the :+fav:
ChibiPyro Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2017  Student Artisan Crafter
Thank you for faving my artisan craft work! I am glad you like it!:heart::huggle:
CeptinSmerglez Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
H-heh.. sure have much better talent than I have. Clap I think I've fainted. 
Protosasyn Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for fave :D
CeptinSmerglez Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Nod. Same heres. La la la la
Shurugatori Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for watching me, I appreciate it a lot!
CeptinSmerglez Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem Calvin, your art's pretty cool and has this sorta like... cartoony look to it? e w e.. I dunno... But uh... keep up the good work though. You're quite good, hah, better than me that's for sure.

u w u
BerenyiArts Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2016  Hobbyist
Hi! Welcome to  DeviantArt   ! Hope you will like it here!  :) (Smile)
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